This is Nicholas. In this post, I am going to mention few things about my past. I got married at the age of 27 years, to my boyfriend, with whom I was in a relationship with my college. Our wedding was perfect and went exactly like I had planned.
Don’t get me wrong we had to go through a lot of stress and planning, by my sister who luckily is an event planner, helped me through every minute detail. After my marriage, my life seemed perfect. I had married the love of my life; our wedding was perfect, and we both were doing well in our respective careers.
After about two years, few decided that it is time for both of us to try for a baby. And we succeeded with that pretty soon, and I got pregnant. For the first two months, everything seemed fine, and we both started to prepare for our first baby.
However, in the third month of my pregnancy, when we visited the doctor, she informed us about a complication that I had developed. It was a rare complication; that can sometimes lead to miscarriage. Obviously, both of us got worried. Unfortunately, our nightmare turned into a reality, and I had to go through a miscarriage.
We had this coming, as, after each visit, we were informed that we should be prepared for the loss. But still, we both were very hurt. Our family supported us through this, but to get our minds off this; we decided to take a vacation. We both went to South East Asia, but the majority of our thoughts were occupied in the loss we just had suffered from. But before returning to our home, we decided that we should not give up, and we should try again. But this time, we made sure we take all the precautions. We were advised to go through several tests, and reports for almost every single one of the was positive. Our doctors said we had nothing to worry about, and we should go ahead. So once again we started trying and soon enough I was pregnant.
This time around, I read every book I could find, followed a healthy diet and maintained utmost care. But destiny wasn’t ready to bless us with a child and in the last month of my second trimester, the doctor dropped a bombshell.
According to the doctor, the fetus wasn’t developing the way should. There were no limbs. After extensive tests, the doctor said that there is 90% chance that the baby will be born with permanent brain damage. And we both were heartbroken. Frankly, words cannot describe what I was going through. It was a terrible feeling and more so because it was happening with us for the second time.
After a heavy heart, we decided to go for an abortion. Since we were in the second trimester, a much-complicated surgery had to be done. Thankfully, the surgery was successful, and I didn’t have any major complications either.
The following two months were the most difficult months of my life. I didn’t feel like working, and my career was also going downhill. After discussing with my husband, we decided to focus on work, and take bigger projects so that we can get our mind off this. Initially, it was tough for both of us to concentrate on our job but we humans are gifted with this incredible ability to move on, even after suffering from unbelievable amounts of mental and physical pain.
Few months down the line, I started vomiting. Initially, I thought it was the flu but I decided to the ‘Pee Pregnancy Test.’ I couldn’t believe my eyes, as it was positive. I immediately went to the doctor (without my husband), and he confirmed my pregnancy. I called him to the tell the news.
To be honest, the feeling was more of a shock than happiness. I think me and my husband shared a special night on our anniversary and we were super drunk, so we hadn’t expected this to happen.
Anyway, after going through two failures, we didn’t know how to act. So we decided not to overthink and continued with our day to day life and took the necessary care and precautions. It was going through well, but I guess happiness wasn’t ready to grace our lives.
I think it was the fourth month and my husband picked me up after work. A mile before we reached our home, a car jammed into our car and we had a terrible accident. Two drunk teenagers were driving at over 90 miles/hour. When I woke up in the hospital, I was told about everything and our doctor told that, unfortunately; they couldn’t save the baby. You can imagine the pain and trauma that I experienced when these words came out of doctor’s mouth. And ladies and gentleman, after I was discharged from the hospital, I went into the worst phase of my life.
I went into severe depression, I wouldn’t go anywhere and didn’t feel like eating anything. I lost 25 pounds and was also suffering from severe vitamin deficiency. My husband left no stone unturned to cheer me up, but nothing was able to pierce the shell that I had built for myself. My husband didn’t show any pain on his face, but I know he was also completely broken from the inside.
One of the videos that really helped me at that time is linked below, and if you are suffering from any form of depression I suggest you to watch it too.
Anyway, something happened after a few months, while I was in the grocery store (I went there after a long, long time). There I met my school friend Anita, who was actually from India. I told her my plight, and she was shocked and tried to console me. We talked for about 30-40 minutes and exchanged contacts. When I was about to sleep, I got a call from her. She told me about an Astrologer, back in India, who has helped Anita a lot. She asked me If I want to consult him. I was reluctant at first but later decided to go ahead with that.
When I told him, my birth details, I was shocked at the details he told me about my life. Most of them were accurate, and I was little taken aback. He then said that your life could be turned around, but you have to take some corrective action. (I will talk about that in the next post).
Long story short, after consulting with him, I was pregnant for the fourth time and this time I was blessed with twins. It was easily the happiest moment of my life, and It took me some time to soak in all the happiness. Gradually, my career was back on track, and we started raising our family.
A few months back, I decided to start this blog as I wanted to share my journey. Through this website, I will share everything about raising your child and from what I have learned, that no matter what happens in your life, things will change and mostly for the better. I hope you enjoy the content on my website.
PS – After writing this article, I feel so light. All the things that happened in my life were flashing in front of my eyes. And now when I look back, I am happy for all the bad memories that I experienced because of which I feel so thankful for things that are currently happening in my life.